just like everyone else,

indulging in our own bittersweet way,

seeking a relief from the monotony,

from the wheels marching endlessly forward

toward a future of delusion and chaos.

let me just take a moment

to be nothing

quietly and safely

to be within this fantasy.

maybe one day it will materialise,

the sounds i paint will encompass me,

and take me away to the better place.

maybe

i’ll wait here for as long as it takes