being all wistful and shit, thinking about how i’m going to make it all work. once again i shall go into unnecessary detail for you.

this has been an intense first half of the year.

graduation is done, my final portfolio completed and i begin to put it into the world. i find myself battling a lot of confliction these days, dissatisfied with a lack of proactiveness during these three years, creating so much but denying my work any exposure, struggling to place myself in a worthy career to keep myself afloat in this city. now it is the summer and it is time to take that all seriously. not to mention trying to find an affordable flat, goodness me it’s damn near impossible.

it’s important to remember that momentary stresses are not permanent, and that the world isn’t ending every time i feel overloaded with them. i am really quite dramatic sometimes.

now i’m just trying my best. i’ve made it back home again to rest with the family, a much much needed break from the madness of all i’ve been doing lately. got to get my head in shape, develop my spaces and creative expressions, and market myself.

it’s about time i let people find this page too; i guess i’ll start using tags and all that shit.

i do wonder what the future holds. i’ve always had such determined focus and belief in what i do, but lately that has wavered considerably. the combination of so many adult stresses with this passion to be an artist and express myself through these mediums breaks most people, and i can’t bear to be another lost dream.

i really believe what i make is rather unique.

so it’s time to make the weird short videos, try and get people to find my old stuff, develop new artistic concepts and portray my sounds differently.

build up to the main pieces, and hope that my singing may be of some solace to someone.

dying is easy, it’s living that is the hardest.

but the best things do not come from nothing, and i ground to the understanding that consistent effort and the choice to continue to try garners the greatest rewards.

you just need to remember your purpose.

and get inspired 🙂